But there is nothing normal about today.  Just think about everything that must function properly for you to survive! (Page 39 of Crazy Love, by Francis Chan)

I was driving out to work the other day, and I was thinking this exact thing, in fact I actually spoke this to Angie the other day!  Do we actually realize how much we are not in control.  As Francis points out in this book and as I realized the other day ( I was not in a wreck, I just thought this), we drive down the road at 65, well maybe 70-75, 80 if you are my mom, and we pass cars going the opposite way.  We do not think about or even remotely wonder if that car that is coming has been kept up well, or if the driver is alert, or if his tire is gonna burst, or if he is updating his facebook status while driving.  We simply think that he is in control of his car, and I am in control of mine or maybe we do not even think anything, because we really think that we are going to live past today, and for quite sometime.  We do not think about how our heart is beating on perfect rhythm, or if our kidneys are functioning right.  As Francis points out, ” the only people that think about their kidneyes functioning right, are those with kidney problems.”  This is the way it is with our life, we do not realize how short it is, we do not even begin to chew, or even touch this verse. “What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”  James 4:13-14

This 2nd chapter of Crazy Love has opened my eyes to quite a few thoughts! Do I really know that I am not in control of my life in totality.  Do I realize that God is ultimately the One who is in control and at any second my life could vanish and in a twinkling of an eye, I could be gone. Am I ready for that? How have I prepared my life in a way so that the preacher will not have to lie at my funeral ( I used to have a shirt that said that)  Think about that, have you ever been to a funeral where the preacher says something bad about the person that is being buried? (Francis points this out in the book) I mean we sit there and think, well he/she was not that great of a person, but it is like an unwritten law that you have to say everything positive about the person that has died.

I have done 9 funerals in my life as a pastor(6 of them have been car accidents), and each one of them have been very hard to speak  at and walk through, I have buried 5 of my teenagers, my friends Grandpa, my wife’s grandpa, my cousin, and my own Grandma, and for the most part only one of them did I truly know well enough (now do not think that all of them were bad, in fact my cousin come to find out was really someone that I wish I would have known better, she truly loved well) to know that every word that was coming out of my mouth that day was the truth.

There was this lady named Marilyn Conrad (my Grandma), who lived every waking minute, up until her last breathe at the Nursing Home in Wapakoneta, Ohio, for Christ.  I mean every second…well there was that one time she, my mom and Angie came down to visit me at church camp, and she fell out of bed and cussed….oh and that one time, her son Jim was taking  a corner too fast and she let another one go….but literally if you knew my Grandma, you have met someone authentic!  Someone who spent every waking minute praying, praising, teaching, thinking and knowing who God was to her, and in her what we would call battle with Cancer, it was not a battle to her, just another day closer to glory (as my buddy Mark would say) Now that I look back on her life, and I am thankful that I knew her the way I did, I realize that the biggest effect that she has had on my life is not the fact that she was my best of friends, but the simple fact that since I knew her, I was able to see someone who knew their life was a vapor and was going to live it that way.

So here we sit, as a human, we are worried about what car we want, what toy we are going to buy our kids for Christmas, what the job looks like, what tomorrow will bring,when we do not even know if we are going to get there! Seriously, think about it, I am getting ready to go to bed tonight and as I sit here, I have always wondered how our bodies rest and then wake back up, it is a big deal of everything working together.  So with that in mind I have got a complete decision to make, if I am just an “extra” in this movie of life, and I, much to my own demise am not the main character, but the movie is all about “God”  what am I doing to make Him more visible…..HOW MANY CAMERA ANGLES AM I GIVING PEOPLE ABOUT GOD IN MY LIFE.  Your life is not about you….sorry….the promotion, the money, the presents, the sex, the beer, the partying, you will not even remember some of the people, and as Francis Chan points out, NO ONE WILL KNOW YOU IN 50 years, in fact hardly anyone that you know will remember you in 50 years…so quit living as if you are going to live forever, and the people that are around you are always going to be there!

It sucks to think about but it is true!

I guess what I am getting from this chapter is this….you and your relationship with God is the only thing that matters,  on page 42 it says that Worry implies that we don’t quite trust that God is big enough, powerful enough, or loving enough to take care of what is happening in our lives, and that Stress says that the things we are involved in are important enough to merit our impatience, our lack of grace toward others, or our tight grip of control!  These two things keep us from realizing that God is in control and handing the reins over to HIM.

Do you need to simply sit back, and really know that He is in control, can you be like my Grandma and Rejoice in every moment of your life….if you got cancer today, would you have to change the way you are walking.  You see some people have a great reputation and that is it…In Revelation 3:1 it says “I know your deeds,you have a reputation of being alive,but you are dead.

WAKE UP…you are not hear for that long….so live your life so they do not have to question what the preacher is speaking at your funeral!!

This counts as my Thursday blog…if I make it that far